Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Who's Pulling Your Strings?

Get the whole world in your hands

Instead of feeding my old assumptions about the 'holiday season' 
this year, I relinquished all my old expectations.
I said farewell to other people's notions of what 'is'
or 'should be' and even my own childhood sense 
of loss for the reality that exists.
I just let go and let it be another day in the neighborhood.

And it was good.

I didn't go anywhere I didn't want to go, didn't surround
myself with anyone I didn't want to see, didn't get
involved in any activities/traditions/habits that
were not to my liking, and I felt not one single iota
of disconnect or detachment because I was not
"part of" this massive movement.
Because I'm not; I'm me..and only me.

I can do my thing and be the only person on the planet doing so, and that's cool.
I owe no explanations, and need no one's approval.
I can craft whatever kind of day or week I need
based on my needs, and not feel threatened
or left out or lonely. It's all an attitude.

One day has no more 'magic' than another.
I am not obligated to perform trendy rituals.
I need make no apology for my beliefs.
I needn't get upset about other people's foolishness.
The predictability of human drama is entertaining if you let it be.

Be the designer of the world you want.
Give yourself permission!


Thursday, December 15, 2011

Albert Einstein In Context

“It seems to me that the idea of a personal God is an anthropological
concept which I cannot take seriously. I feel also not able to imagine
some will or goal outside the human sphere. My views are near those
of Spinoza: admiration for the beauty of and belief in the logical simplicity
of the order which we can grasp humbly and only imperfectly. I believe
that we have to content ourselves with our imperfect knowledge and
understanding and treat values and moral obligations as a purely human
problem—the most important of all human problems.”

“I am a deeply religious nonbeliever.…
This is a somewhat new kind of religion.”

“The fairest thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the funda-
mental emotion which stands at the cradle of true art and true science.
He who knows it not and can no longer wonder, no longer feel amaze-
ment, is as good as dead, a snuffed-out candle. It was the experience
of mystery — even if mixed with fear — that engendered religion. A
knowledge of the existence of something we cannot penetrate, of the
manifestations of the profoundest reason and the most radiant beauty,
which are only accessible to our reason in their most elementary forms-
it is this knowledge and this emotion that constitute the truly religious
attitude; in this sense, and in this alone, I am a deeply religious man. I
cannot conceive of a God who rewards and punishes his creatures, or
has a will of the type of which we are conscious in ourselves. An
individual who should survive his physical death is also beyond my
comprehension, nor do I wish it otherwise; such notions are for the
fears or absurd egoism of feeble souls. Enough for me the mystery of
the eternity of life, and the inkling of the marvellous structure of reality,
together with the single-hearted endeavour to comprehend a portion,
be it never so tiny, of the reason that manifests itself in nature.”


Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Asking a Better Solution of Your Worries

If I am lonely, I will hold my own hand.....
If I am sad, I will know that it passes in time.
If I am disturbed, I will assess the source accurately.
If I am maligned, I will pay no heed.

If others dismiss me, I will know they are missing out.
If my dreams are not met, I will remember
that unmet dreams are a part of the journey,
and not a final outcome.

If I am scared, I will endeavor to understand why
and know that fear and worry is human,
but meaningless.

If I feel less than, I will know
that it is a lie, and change focus to embrace
all that is right with me. No one else's goals
are my goals.

If I feel left out or unattended, I will remember
that I am responsible for my own entertainment
and empowerment and education.
There are always books, music, movies
and other sources of connection
from like-minded comrades past and present.

If I begin to worry, I will remember...
that worry is weakness taught.
I will relearn a better solution to my
mind's turmoil.


Saturday, December 10, 2011

I AM My Own God

Why would I seek a source outside of me
for strength, for love, for sight?

Why would I imbue another with the ability or
the responsibility to care for me?

Why would I seek to counter reason with
fantasy and fiction?

Why would I give up on the reality that persists
to indulge in groundless wishful thinking?

There is no God in place to run and rule,
so I step in and fill the void.

I AM not a child....
I AM not helpless....
I AM not prone to hysterical fairy tales calming me.....
I AM not unhappy or without value...
I AM not required to mirror the masses...

I AM complete, and the best head of this life I am living.

No more divisions between self
and higher understanding.


Saturday, December 3, 2011

Changing the Dynamic


Step through the fear
Stop settling for less than
Shine your light
Let no man stand against you


It is within.


Saturday, November 26, 2011

"He who trims himself to suit everyone
will soon whittle himself away."
    ~Raymond Hull

"God has given you one face,
and you make yourself another."
    ~William Shakespeare

"It takes courage to grow up
and become who you really are."
    ~e.e. cummings

"Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself
to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of
your life; define yourself."
    ~Harvey Fierstein

"There is just one life for each of us: our own."

"Wherever you go, go with all your heart."

"When one is pretending the entire body revolts."
    ~Anais Nin

"It is better to be hated for what you are
than to be loved for something you are not."
   ~Andre Gide


Thursday, November 17, 2011

My Manifest Life; Act Three

I Am dedicated to Providing, instead of Seeking, these days.

I wanted something to do the other night, and receved a last
minute reminder of a local Open Mic and Poetry Reading.
When I got the message my first thoughts were "Oh, I am so
tired, and I don't have anything prepared-- STOP! Just go!"
I caught myself doing the opt-out thang that has kept me from
going or growing so often in life.

So I went home and got ready, and started putting myself
in another New Mindset for me; Spontaneity! Because one
of my biggest issues is in not feeling okay if I have not planned
something to Death. So I took the challenge of not having
something prepared as a challenge to be met! And I determined
to be a part of, rather than mere observer.

I embraced the scariness, I welcomed the burst of excitement,
I allowed my true self to conjure up some ideas, and I
walked into the Lion's Den!

"I AM Courage....I AM Ready....I AM Capable.
I AM Confident; I make it so.
I acknowledge the fear, and I act anyway!
I AM in charge of my interaction with life.
Right now....embrace...enjoy....step into it!"

I came up with a comedy bit that was impromptu, and I
was bold and outspoken and worked on all the things
that I want to improve, rather than giving in to them and
skulking away!

It was a big smash, everyone really loved the bit I did,
I met a lot of fun and interesting new people, and it was
actually one of the best nights in my life!

Afterwards, I went walking with a friend, and we met
a guy playing guitar at the park. I pushed into the
opportunity, asked to join him, and was subsequently
dazzled with hours of music and philisophical discourse!
I met someone who shares a lot of similar outlooks,

who also had an incredible demeanor that humbled me.

From one new bold outcome emits another, and
another, and......

(Evening wear available at Suckit Intl!)


My Manifest Life: Act Two

So I had a bad habit of focusing on what was
'wrong' or what I lacked; I spent time and energy
talking about and thinking about weakness and
inability, perceived or real.

So I decided to become at peace with what 'is'
already to the extent that is possible, and trust
that what is needed will be provided by The Universe
(or I will find a way to bring it about.)

I had some serious need of clothing both for
work and personal, since funds had been so
tight, so I got proactive. I swallowed my pride
and asked a local woman who does work with
a clothes closet if she had anything in my size
(which is typically hard to fit) and she produced
a bag of clothes that fit me to a T!

No one else will know the clothes were donated
unless I choose to tell them. I am as grateful and
proud of those clothes as if I had sewn them myself!

The next week an acquaintance heard me talking
about how long I had made a pair of shoes last,
and we got to talking. She asked if I could use
some clothes, since she imagined her husband's
wardrobe would fit me. He had passed in the last
year. I graciously accepted to see if they would

That lovely woman brought down about four
huge garbage bags and laundry bags filled with
clothes; every possible piece and type of clothing
imaginable, and every one of them a perfect fit.

All that I had been doing without due to lack of
funds, I now had flush again; belts, robes, jeans,
dress shirts, and more, all beautifully kept! And the
style is a bit retro, which fits my sensibilities
perfectly, and they even have a scent that reminds
me of my Nana and Papa's house!

It was a great blessing that I am incredibly grateful
for, and it happened when I stopped being consumed
about what was 'not' and opened myself to what
could 'be.' I had a need, and I saw it being met,
and it was.


My Manifest Life: Act One

So I had decided that, rather than sit here like a bump
on a log and complain about the lack of options catering
to me, I would change my outlook and begin choosing
a more empowering mindset.

I would start envisioning the kind of things I would be
interested in. I would see them as being possible Here,
Now, Where I Am, and no longer as 'unattainable.'

So I started empowering myself, believing it possible,
and drawing forth (prayer, if you like) from the Universe
artistic outlets and endeavors for my edification.

Every morning, I set forth what kind of day it would
be; Prosperous, Grateful, Genuine to Self, Empowering,
Courageous. Throughout the day, I renewed my

I agreed to stop saying "No" to everything, to stop
doubting and giving power to nothingness, and instead
create opportunity, draw opportunity, be ready for
opportunity, and to say "YES" to opportunity.

In the next week, an acquaintance approached me
at the library and asked if I would be available to
do a movie with him. I didn't hesitate. Unequivocally,
I said "Yes," and now have been involved in a great
creative outlet, as well as have new contacts, new
experiences, new opportunities that continue to come
through as a result!

We can have whatever we conceive,
if only we will believe.



Monday, November 14, 2011

Pushing On

"With a little perseverance
you can get things done...

in spite of blind adherence
that has conquered

-Corey Hart


Friday, November 11, 2011

What are we waiting for?

We don't know how much time we have,
and it slips away so easily.
Why wouldn't we fill every moment with
something of importance, of substance?

Let others be content to sit back
and passively allow the world to drone on,
we will stand tall and speak loud
and be seen and be known.

We were not made such unique and
wondrous creatures, so full of life
and insight, just so we could sit still
and accept this imperfect world.

There is work to be done.

Fight like your life depends on it.
It does.

We get exactly the world we are willing
to accept, to fight for.

There are things that need doing in this world;
We all know this.
How much are we willing to do?


Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Reminder Notes

I AM ...Powerful

I AM...Strong

I AM....Whole and Complete

I AM.... Wondrous

I AM ....Beautiful

I AM... Prosperous

I AM.....Loved

I AM....Blessed Beyond Compare

I AM....Capable of Anything

Let me remember these Truths,
renew these Truths,
proclaim these Truths,
promote these Truths,
reveal these Truths,
continue these Truths,
and explore these Truths.

Most importantly, be firm
and affirming of them from within.
No outside source can ever remove them.

I am Open to knowing these Truths more
and more
through the Faith and Fulfillment
of my greatness and Life.


fully, and

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Talking 'bout the real thing, baby....

If we stop to acknowledge and respect
the amount and level of power
we actually have over our day,
things would go so much more smoothely!

In every moment, if we are Cautious and Aware,
we can transform Reality with either a smile
or a frown....our Thoughts and Words and Actions
are all so carefully tied to our impact on the world,
and, of course, what it gives back to us!

We can determine a new Friend or Foe by
letting transgressions slide or becoming menacing
and defiant. Conflict--short of self preservation--
is a Choice. Resentment is a Choice. And one
decision colors the rest of the world we see.
Do we reach into another person's day for good
or for ill, by either acknowledging them with a
nod and a kind word, or looking the other way
and ignoring them?

Regret, resentment, and rage...
or contentment, calm, and compassion?

Do we perform for others, clamoring for affection
and attention, or do we remain True to Spirit
and Self?

Are we engaged in old patterns and habits,
or are we open to new paths and outcomes?
Repitition or exploration?

Is it in our heart to curse others (and our day)
with contempt, gossip, and assumption,
or do we Bless with kindness, courtesy,
support, and a tongue in reserve?

It is completely within us to decide each of
these, and by choosing, so determine the quality
of our day.....and that of those around us.

Sunday, September 4, 2011


He who lives in harmony with himself

lives in harmony

with the world.

- Marcus Aurelius


Invariably, things turn out differently
than we might expect or envision,
no matter the devotion or detail applied.

Remarkably, the end results can be
more useful than what we intended.

If I Am open to the Gift of Reality,
and cease interpretting as good/bad
from my limited perspective....

if I Am confident in my abilities rather
than doubting and fearing and being
obsessed with lacking...

Great things can occur...and I can see them.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Hit the Refresh Button

A daily renewing for our earthly shells

I AM blessed and favored
and ever so great..
I AM a wondrous creation,
connected to all beauty and love...
I AM meaningful, powerful,
pure and clear....
I AM happy by choice,
and free from fear.

I am fulfilled and grateful...
I AM decided....
I AM with purpose....
I AM responsible and
satisfied and content...
I AM always saved,
though I may feel spent.

I AM capable and strong
and provide for myself,
I AM deserving and
prosperous and open
to every good thing coming to me
and through me.

I AM claiming my rightful place
in charge of my own life,
amidst the fast and furious
flowing stream of  benefit and strife.
I AM whole, and it takes every one of
my precious broken pieces
to make it so.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

All We Need

Every moment of solitude is Gift
to focus and clear and prepare
Every pain and attack is Clarity
of what is real and charade
Every deficit deemed by another
is merit less in our reality

This mind, this emotion, this mouth
mine to control
What establishes itself within
will come to pass in my dealings without; and careful caution.

Aloneness is time to discover self
and recognize the labors that need doing;
Separateness is Blessing to determine true need.
We are easily lost and absorbed
when we make too much an appendage
of ourselves upon others.

Let the path within
not be distracted by the circumstances
of the external world.
Health, wealth, loss, hurt, worry, rejection;
none mean a thing in the scheme.
All that we need is inside;
Heart and Drive and Truth,
Rightness and Spirit
longing for accord.

I am divine.

Monday, August 29, 2011

The Armor of Truth

The Armor of Truth
(adapted from some book or another)

Finally, be strong in  Self and in your mighty power. 
(Know that every good thing is yours and coming your way.
You are connected to every good thing in the Universe.)

Put on the full armor of Living, so that you can take your stand
against the dark’s schemes. Let no doubt or condemnation
disable you or distract you from your task. Be genuine and pure,
so much as it is possible. Feel the power of Now and your
inherent universal right to be alive and well.

For our struggle is not merely against neighbors and bosses and
corporations, but against governments and automatons,
against the authorities, against the powers of this dark
world and against the spiritual forces of evil in all realms.

Therefore put on the full armor of Self, so that when the daily
evil of compromise and corruption comes, you may be able
to stand your ground, and after you have done everything,
to stand...tall, loud and proud. Know your worth. See your

Stand firm then, with the belt of True Living buckled around
your waist, allowing no others' callow or gossiping bits to
invade the pits of your stomach.....
with the breastplate of Connectedness in place, reminding
you that your heart is whole and strong, no matter how
heavy it may become....

and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from
the Peace of Acceptance. Let no circumstance sway your path.
Everything can be worked for your good. See the lesson
within every pain, and stay rooted in your good.

In addition to all this, take up the shield of Faith, with which
you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil ones,
such as the Republicans, the false prophets, the ignorant, the 
charlatans, the wealthy, the prideful, and the self-righteous.
Deflect their manipulative concoctions; do not let them near.

Take the helmet of Conscious Reality and the sword of the
Spirit, which is the word of Truth. Protect yourself against the
horrible lies and deceits of this dualistic world and its
manipulations; bad people claiming good, bad acts being
rewarded, bad thoughts prevailing, and more.
Speak the truth always, no matter the reception. Pierce the veil.

And pray in the Spirit and Mind on all occasions with all
kinds of  meditations, demands, proclamations, affirmations,
and countering of negativity. We must be ever vigilant against
friend and foe, for no one aside from us can understand who
we are meant to be. No one else can give us what we must
cultivate in self.

With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying
for all people. For conflict in and of itself is not fortuitous
for any person. We must never seek adversity to prove
ourselves capable of handling it. We seek peace, but
smartly, remain prepared for war.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Dualistic tendencies

Knowing what drives you is good;
Knowing that Two Guides lead you
is a blessing, not a curse!
Two wondrous beasts reign over my
spirit and provide my elements.

On the Offensive
Strike hard and fast
Will Not be denied
Soar high
Free of thought and spirit
Regal, powerful
Visionary messenger
Seeker of liberation & Insights
Target of Fearful
Difficulty connecting to earth
Portent of Change
Harbinger of Awakeness and Awareness
Seer of the Unseen

As Above, So Different Below....

On the sly
Active at night
Defensive system
Recipient of Fear & Respect
Solitary; slow movement
Confident & Prideful
Creates a scene
Causes irritation in Attackers
Reactionary, intuitively protective
Quiet, reserved
Surprisingly fierce

Thursday, August 11, 2011


Survival, like tires, doesn't have to be pretty.

Rise up, stand tall, live loud.

Any battle you walk away from is a good one.

We're entering into a vast "Any which way you can"
mode of getting through and making it.

Buckle up, recalibrate; Get'r done.

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Easier said than done....(as always!)

"Blessed is he who has learned
to admire but not envy,
to follow but not imitate,
to praise but not flatter,
and to lead but not manipulate."

~ William Arthur Ward ~
"working on it!"

Friday, July 22, 2011

The Power of Each Moment's Decision

You alone are in charge
of your thoughts.

You can steer them
in a negative, defeated
direction, or a positive,
empowered direction.

You can decide
where to apply your energy
and where to detach.

The choice is always yours,
which means
that the outcome
is always from your creation.

Own this idea,
and you will take charge
of your life
and become the master of it.

-Sherri Lane


Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Creating a space

Own your own space.

You have the right to live your own full life....

No one else has the right to impose

their version of the truth on you.

No one has absolute knowledge or insight...

it's all just hypotheticals and best guesses.

We're all just doing our best to stay afloat;

when we try and brand Our salvation as

The Salvation, we create tension

that needn't exist.'s all what you make of it.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Actualized, pre-emptive, and ready

The Hawk sits anxiously
upon his throne,
awaiting the time for war.

Patience, planning, purpose,
passion, and preparation
lovingly serve the preservation
of self against a world of detractors and

Let the judgment of the one-man
Council be swift, strong, suitable,
and serious.

Peace is a luxury for
fools and victims.
Only a submissive
accepts a status quo of
negligence and degradation.

Power is within,
established only upon
refusal of scraps, upon
venturing the step beyond.

Do the work.
Relinquish the past and all
Vanquish the opposition.

No excuses, no blame, no regret,
no worry, no emotion, no frets.
Choose to be set free,
and never look back.

Tapping the power...tipping the scales

My animal spirit,
My totem,
My base,
My guide
My source
The hawk--
He doesn't play,
It's for keeps,
Kill or be killed...
No worry for peeps.
Designed for war
Ready for action
Release the animal
Tap the Power
Feel the Pain
Bring the rain.
Fight for your Life,
No reservations,
No hesitations,
No limits.
It's on.

And this is how hawks handle snakes!

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

(from the internet!)

An old man, a boy & a donkey were going to town.

The boy rode on the donkey & the old man walked.

As they went along they passed some people who
remarked "What a shame the old man is walking
and the boy is riding."

The man and boy thought maybe the critics were right,
so they changed positions.

Later they passed some people who
remarked "What a shame..... he makes that little boy
 walk." So they then decided they'd both walk!

Soon they passed some more people who remarked,
"They're really stupid to walk when they have a
decent donkey to ride." So, they both rode the donkey.

Now they passed some people who shamed them
by saying "How awful to put such a load on a poor

The boy and man figured they were probably right,
so they decide to carry the donkey.

As they crossed the bridge, they lost their grip on
the animal and he fell into the river and drowned.

The moral of the story? If you try to please every-
one, you might as well...
Kiss your ass goodbye!

(And the choir said "A-men!,brother!")