Never Forget

On The Flip Side

I used to believe I was being targeted for attack because
I was especially vulnerable--weak, soft, an outsider, apart
from the herd, little-missed...an easy target.


There's something about a professional victim that makes
everyone want to harness all their fury and and continue
the habitual assault. A vibe they give off, the desperation
and accessibility; a sad, wounded-animal look in their eyes.


Sometimes you turn a corner and new information can
surprise you, though.


Well, revelations surprise you. The info isn't new, it's just
new to you!


Now I know the true reason people targeted me (in addition
to the human race being filled with unrepentant asses, of
course.) 

I know the reason that people were especially malicious,
engaging in acrimonious assaults, going out of their way to
harm or ridicule me, ganging up on me...especially determined
to assassinate my character, draw me into fights, bring me low,
attempt to destroy self worth and financial stability.


These things happened, they happened often, and they
happened more than the average person seems to encounter.
But they didn't happen because I am weak; I was targeted
exactly because I am strong.


Folks spotted the energy in me and saw it as threat; they
sought to destroy a figure they feared before I knew what
was in me and had tapped into it. They saw my aimlessness and
lack of faith and they sought to take advantage of that before
I became who they feared me to be. They were right to be
afraid.


There is a beast of freedom within me, a rapturous demon
seed whose hunger won't be quelled.


Not by any thoughtless drones, or secretive, pious, bitchy,
dichotomous windbags.....not by the disingenuous and huddled
masses of the insecure and the subservient....not by coordinated
attacks of the well-groomed and well-connected.


I am whole, and beautiful in my frightening splendidness.
They cannot affect or influence me or threaten me any longer.
I cannot be controlled.


I am no longer unaware of the power within me, and I know
now that being conscious and embracing this power will only
increase the pointless onslaught of nay-sayers, haters, cajolers,
and assailants. They will be more organized and more determined
and more ferocious, thinking that their unification and self-righteous-
ness will give them favor. It won't.


I am an unstoppable juggernaut, and I have not yet begun to fight.

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"Don't Ask, Just (Show and) Tell"

Stop asking permission

to be who you are.

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You Got to Keep it Separated

We all of us exist in a mutually-agreed upon

arrangement (even if tacitly so) with our

fellow humans, our fellow cities, states,

countries, etc.

There are certain foregone conclusions,

wrapped up in laws and precedents

and what is generally referred to

as 'common sense' that we are all

supposed to abide by and revere.

But not everything shiny is golden.

Not all of the predetermined 'okay'

actions are in fact acceptable, and

likewise not all things deemed the

erstwhile 'inappropriate' truly are.

There are subterfuges and deceptions

prevalent across the board, top to

bottom. It's easier to take things

at face value, to not dig any deeper

or question the status quo.

It's easier to play along and keep

in-step with what others are doing...

following the lead and not making

any waves.

But there is benefit, too, in stretching

the mind...discovering what if fake

and what is real.

(And sometimes, what cannot be

discerned at all, since subjectivity

is always with us.)

We're free to follow whatever course we choose,

but shouldn't we at least know the

difference between the things

we're choosing from?

Just a question.

***

Forge On

No matter the dreariness,

no matter the supposed sacrifice,

no matter the fear...

no matter the work,

no matter the resistance,

no matter the uncertainty.

The only one who stands

by your side

on this journey

is you.

The desires you implement

and the happiness you seek

should also be yours alone.

Don't look for a guide;

become one.

***

"What doesn't kill us..."

(My 'three strands' are Courage,
Faith in Self, and Resolve.)

*****

There is pain....

make no mistake.

Resistance is not refusal,

but determination.

Reticence is not restriction,

but thoughtful consideration.

Fear is not the end--

just a fact of the matter....

another dissident voice to be

overlooked.

Reluctance is not the final word.

It's the jumping on point.

Weakness has to be trained out of you,

but lack of easiness is not a recipe for

failure. Challenge is the training ground

for all greatness.

While others expect you to be burned

alive or destroyed by the flames' marring,

instead become one with the fire and

rise like a phoenix, reborn.

Everything dies in this world; the

death of our old self and our old ideas

does not bring our life to an end.

Arise.

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The Only One

Only one person

can know your heart...

so only one person

is capable

of being consulted

for advice

on what is in

your best interest.

Nothing else

is applicable.

Stand firm,

and know thy self.

***

"We Found Love"

Insanely beautiful version of this song!

Watch those smiles and just try and refrain from joining in!

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